bowl of thoughts

Merajuk dengan dunia

2010-12-01T20:38:00.000-08:00

Long time no blogging and suddenly i came out with this emotional post.

Merajuk dengan dunia.
thank you for giving me another hard time.
another hurdle to run through
another uncertainties

But,
nothing i could do
Because i am just the actor
on this big stage called dunia.....

i know,
the Almighty Director has something for me
maybe not in this scene

task: write something in 5 minutes.....

2010-04-16T05:07:00.001-07:00

i'm so in updating mood right now. i seems to update everything but not my GF as she had warned me earlier. :)

* 31 working days left to finish my internship. I'm going to do victory lap around my office when the day, 31 May 2010 finally arrived.

* it is good actually to do internship in the firm that will squeeze every drop of your blood because you will have something to do to kill that long 8 hours working period. there's one week when i was left with no job and seriously it was so tiring to wait till the clock reach 6 pm.

* owh crap! stop talking about work. Am i start to enjoying it? No!!

* for the last 4 months, every weekend was a blast! I've met two awesome persons that i will never leave behind in any conditions.

* tomorrow is saturday and another awesome weekend will starts.

* dh lama x share quote. marilah kita kongsi bersama-sama....

"when nothing goes right.. go left... "=))

"shoot for the moon. Even if you miss. you'll land among the stars."

"never give up on something you can't go a day wihout thinking about"

path to her heart......

2010-04-14T23:25:00.000-07:00

The Other Guy

It is always a boy’s dream to become a striker instead of just being a defender or playing the lead guitar instead of just plucking the bass. It is nice to be the main character. The one person that will get the attention, the spotlight and the girls’ scream. Just like others, I also want to be a hero until I finally met this one girl.

I may not fit her criteria. In fact what I am having are all against what she wants in a boy. That makes me the other guy in her life. I believe no girl in this world would turn to the other guy like me when she has her perfect guy just in front of her eyes. Why should her turn to me when she can get the guy of her dream that suit all the criteria? This is the question that will continue to puzzle me.

I don’t want to know the answer. I just want to be thankful because she brought the feelings that I have never felt before. She give me the reason to wake up every morning. She jst give me the reason to smile, to go through everyday knowing that I will meet her at the end of the week and she just make me keep going.

I do hope, after this I’m no longer the other guy in her heart. I want to be the only character, the striker, the lead guitarist and I want to be the king of her heart. I promise to govern her heart with love and sincerity.

“the other guy means you are different from others and you know you own that special place”

hello world

2010-04-14T02:16:00.000-07:00

what up?? atlast i'm able to sing in into this blog.

Many things has changed since the last time i updated this blog. So many till i can't summarize it in one post. I might need a one week holiday just to update this blog so it will reflects all the events happended in my life for the last few months. Owh. no w i tend to use many accounting terms.

I'm no longer the same person as i was 3 months ago.

i think differently now.

i seems to have ambitions/target.

i will continue writing tonight. if i not fall asleep........

All U Do Is Thick

2009-12-20T01:32:00.001-08:00

it may be too early to jump into a conclusion but based on my 13 days working experience as an auditor i will certainly not to choose this career as mine. I'm just doing simple stuff for the past 3 weeks but it's already drove me crazy. Reached home at 8 almost everyday, dealing with very details things... that is not so me.
i don't even handling the calculation part where i need to tally the figure but yet i found what i was doing was hard. i just patiently wait till the time comes when i have to do all those calculation and then realize that my brain is slowly melting, flowing down through my ears because i could not handle the job and the pressure. i'm not the person who easily crack when being under pressure but the work's nature doesn't suit me.
at this very moment, the 6 months of internship seems like so impossible to be reached. I'm counting every single day left. owh, how i miss being in class, sleep when i feel like to or just ponteng klau malas.

2009-12-20T01:20:00.000-08:00

sAya BAru INgat!!!!!!!!1
SaYa adA bLog rUpayA..... =))))

quote

2009-10-12T07:58:00.000-07:00

"sometimes you have to stand up when standing is not easy"

from street fighter: the legend of Chun Li

long time no blogging

2009-10-12T07:27:00.000-07:00

*oooyeaahhh! i'm writing now. i could not remember how many weeks i have left my blog aside. now, i'm working on my assignment on Bursa Malaysia listing procedures but the internet is damn slow i i always end up at *page load error*. this week will be the bussiet week of all. just finish my french paper this morning and i just completed the 3 semesters of french without being able to construct a 'real' french sentence. takat banjour, je' mapelle syafiq tue bleh la... =p i got two more test and an assignment to submit at the end of this week. hectic kn??
*lately i just happened to had issues with people. i don't know why. it is because of me? i rather to see it as my fault but with this one guy i just could not blame myself. i don't really mind if he called me selfish but "kau dh la tak nampak". it was too much man. seriously, terngiang-ngiang lagi kat telinga. i know that i am damn celupar buat as far as i concern i never use anything that harsh. nevermind, he doesn't knows how hard to life with that conditions and that is why he can spelled it out easily.
*enough with issues. now lets talk about raya. this year raya was booorrinnnnggg!!! i don't want to complain but if u happened to read my last year raya post that is the exactly what i hate about raya. so, don't want to write it for twice. but, but...this raya i learned to cook quite a few of dishes. the reason? my mom felt sick on the 2nd raya and we adik beradik have to prepare the rendang and other things on our own.
*before i forget, i complety make fool of myself when i decided to sing during pekan syawal. tapikan, if not me who else is going to do all that crazy stuff?? and sorry amir for ruined your music.
*as suggested by someone i should make review on papadom. this award winnig film received a big round f applause from the audience. i just love the comedy in this film. other than that, the story line not really intresting. owh,of course penyeri cerita nie ialah VANIDAH IMRAN =p
*2 more weeks to final. struggle for 5 papers than working time! for 6 months? -,-

i just runnig out of idea. back to Bursa Malaysia page. bye!

2009-09-07T03:40:00.000-07:00

again, no title. have u been in the situation that needs u to not being yourself so that other people feel good? there's some people, when they are around us that make us feel so awkward but yet they are our 'friends' kn?? i think that was my mistake. to have many friends as i can, i sometimes try to pleased them even i realized that we don't have anything in common to become a friend. we just have that one topic that we both know and kept using it as 'modal' to makesure we have somthing to talk about or to at least feel like owh, bila jumpa dia ckp psl benda nie mesti ok. this best act then hit my self back when the other party feels he is now knows me so well and start to since we know each other for a while i can say anything about him. post nie mcm perempuan kn? but, why should we be around someone who doesn't have any good words or encouragemnt towards us kn?? i've never done this before but i'm doing it right now.

2009-09-01T03:15:00.000-07:00

no title for this entry. it is 6.20 and one hour to go before i can eat my heart out. seriously, i got nothing to do. nothing interest me in facebook and i cannot open the soccernet site because the internet is damn slow. owh, this is my 1st entry for this ramadhan. i was at my beloved hometown last weekend and guess what? it is food heaven. i arrived at 6 pm on friday and by the time i reached home it was about 10 minutes to berbuka. nasi minyak, daging masak merah, dalca (owh, i love dalca. if i got it, my plate surely will banjir) and of course kuih muih and air tebu. the next day the whole family have berbuka at opah's house. i just forgot to tell opah how she is kinda popular among my friends now because of 'kain batik opah otai'. again, for the 2nd day, the food was marvelous. we even have 4 types of drinks, teh bunga, air kelapa, jambu batu and this one drink that only exist during ramadhan in perak, air timun betik.it was like having kenduri. superb! and for the 3rd day, my mom cooked nasi jagung, ayam masak merah and sayur campur. it made my butt stucked on the floor, not being ableh to lift myself after 2 kali tambah. now, i'm back at uitm having the ordinary food that i can grabbed from cafe or bazaar ;(
owh, there's many things happened last week. i don't want to talk about the comment test. just like usual test suck!
the happy part of lastweek when i know that i alredy secured a place for my internship programme. yesssszaa!! thanx to *&*. boleh ke tulis nama company tue? but anyway thank you very much for saving my life or otherwise i have to do my intern at bendahari uitm. it's not i don't want to work there but please..i want some fresh air.
6.50 already. i managed to killed 30 minutes by writing this post. hahaha!

can't feel my arms

2009-08-15T04:08:00.000-07:00

saturday 15 august 2009

it's saturday and i was supposed to malas2 in bed but i woke up early just to know amirul was already in bathroom taking his shower. today's his big day because he was representing our faculty in takraw. i texted almost everyone in my batch last night allerting them amirul is going to play and ask them to be at pusat sukan to cheer for him. i received warm reply and really hope they will turn out. oohh, i planned to make a banner for him but since he kept saying he is not inthe 1st team and desn't really want to tell the exact day he is going to play so the banner plan is over. oh,oh i even managed to get some people to sponsor the banner. siot mirul tak menghargai usaha aku.

so after amiurl leaved the room, i waited for 15 minutes, just don't want to arrive there earlier then the athletes. while listening to my ipod ( i bought myself ipod touch early this week and i still main2 with this thing to make sure it worth my money), i was thinking it is so good if i can play any games. so then i walked to pusat sukan. As i arrived there to find mirul, i heard my name being called. it was simbab and fareez. they dragged me to the field where the tarik tali match is going on. accountancy team do not have enought players!!!!!!!!!! hahaaha. so there were me, filling the empty spot. during the 1st game they don't choose me as there were enought people in accoutns shirts. i'm ok with it since i not really tarik tali before. Accounts received walk over as the opponents failed fill the players quota.

about half and hour later, the tarik tali manager again, try to get anyone from accountacy to join the team and this is it. ttat was my time. hahaha!! i representing my fac in SAF!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha!!! sumpah tak bohong... i was the front man. we wont the first round lose the second one due the slippery pitch. And,and.... and.... we won the tie break!!!!!! our strategy went well to make the opponents lose their ground. we like crazy people, jumping, hugging and of course shouting..hahah!!! no warms up, 5 years not involve in anything competitive and i just felt my chest want to explode.haih!

we marched to the semi final! yes, for my 1st SAF, i brought my team to semi final. *bangga*
just before the semi final match, again we short by 2 people. the team manager just like before had ro run looking for man power. lucky enough he managed to get the two men we needed. but, luck was just not our side. we need to start at the slippy side of the pitch and just to realised the opponent have 5 aki in their side plus 3 prof. we lost the 1st round and planned to win the 2nd round to bring the match into the tie break. but sadly, we've tried our best. all 8 of us slipped simultanoulsy while we leading the match and gave the opponent chance to pull us down.

yes. we lost. but i don't care. it was just my day. i represented faculty of accountacy in SUKAN ANTARA FAKULTI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
owh, skrang tangan, bahu dada dan kaki sangat sakit.

angel and demon

2009-07-28T18:08:00.000-07:00

yesterday, i arrived at KL sentral at about 12.35. then, i went straight to the bookstore to get the newspapers. after paying the papers, on my way out, i stopped at the magazine section just to realized the FHM 100 sexiest issue is already out. i grabbed the magazines, went straight to the counter, pay and quickly leaved the bookstore as the announcer keep calling for the ipoh shuttle train passengers to proceed to the platform. i hold both the newspapers and the magazine and went down the stairs to the platform.

i entered the train and starts looking for my seat.
"5A eh?"
"A'ah".....
the girl that asked me earlier gave me way as my seat is window seat. owh crap, i'm holding FHM 100 sexiest WOMAN issue and right next to me is a girl who wearing tudung labuh. i quickly, zipped off my bag and put the magazine in the bag. i then start to read my newspapers while she also reading hers.

"turun kat ipoh ke?" she asked me again.
"A'ah". another "a'ah" and the conversation ends there. do i look so rude for not asking her ktne dia nk turun? hmm... then, i put on my headphones and starts listening to my music.
after about 45 minutes leaving KL Sentral, i grabbed my vanilla coke inside my bag and drank it half and put it back inside my bag which i put on the train floor. i was so thirsty then and i grabbed ti back and drank it some more.

suddenly i felt my elbow been touched and i turned to the girl who sit next to me. she tried to say something but i can't hear anything because the headphones still stuck in my ears. i took off the headphones.

"awak minum air tadi kan?" she asked
"A'ah" satu lagi "a'ah"...hehe!
"lepas tue awak letak dekat kaki awak?"
i don't repy quickly. saya hanya mengangkat-angkatkn kening tanda kurang faham.
"boleh saya bagi nasihat sikit" she continued
"ok" i replied.
" awak minum air tue kan jadi kenapa awak letak dekat kaki awak. makanan tak elok di letak dekat dengan kaki. patutnya awak letak dekat tempat yang tinggi".
"owh, ok" i just don't know what to reply. i shook my head a few times and let the awkward moments pass through.

after about afew seconnds, both of us back on our own activity. i put back my headphoens and i don't know what hse was doing because i'm to scare to look at her. =p

she went out at tanjung malim station. and now i know her detination. she leave without saying anything. hampa kot dekat perangai buruk aku. but i've learn from my mistake and i will surely practise her advise in future. Just after leaving the tanjung malim station, my dirty mind just imigine how am i going to be lectured if i read the 100 sexiest issue next to her??? maybe she won't leave the train at tanjung malim and sit next to me, give me lesson till we reach Ipoh. hmmm..........

she will be loved.

2009-07-27T08:58:00.000-07:00

have u ever try to run but end up in the same place? i think that is exactly what am i doing right now. i thought i've ran miles away but the reality is the harder i tried to get away the closer i brought myself back to her. yes, HER!

i've never told anyone about my feeling, not even to my close friends. i wrote a few times in this blog but i just hinted, hoping she will realize that she is the one that i write about. my ego is to big so the real story never come out. recently, a friend of mine just made a confession about this girl and what really happened back in 2003. it takes 6 years for him to tell me how he feels, i don't know how long it takes for me to at least know that i'm no longer hoping for her.

owh god, for every other girls that i try to be with i see her in them. she just make me wants to compare everyone with her. i'm sick of all this thing and i really want to move on.

honey,
it's been a long time coming,
and i can't stop now
such a long time running,
and i can't stop now
do you hear my heart beating?
can you hear that sound?
'cause i can't help thinking
that i don't look down

and then i looked up at the sun
and i could see
oh, the way that gravity turns for you and me
and then i looked up at the sky
and saw the sun
and the way that gravity turns on everyone
on everyone

baby,
it's been a long time waiting,
such a long, long time
and i can't stop smiling,
oh i can't stop now
do you hear my heart beating?
do you hear that sound?
'cause i can't stop crying
and i won't look down

and then i looked up at the sun
and i could see
oh, the way that gravity turns on you and me
and then i looked up at the sun
and saw the sky
and the way that gravity pulls on you and i
on you and i

what's new, otai??

2009-07-27T08:27:00.000-07:00

as much as i want to update my blog, i frequently end up with nothing. there are so many things wrestled in my mind, asking for the right words in order for them to be written on this blog but i just couldn't find the appropriate words thus no sentence. Crap!!! apa nie??
hahaha! well, nothing much happened back in past few weeks and i think i can put them in this one post.....

1. i got a room mate. cuba teka siapa and if betul my beloved room mate will treat u at Carl's Jr. i have this theory that if i'm staying alone my result for that particular semester will drop badly. so far it's happensed twice. the reason for such phenomena is i don't have anyone to talk to and i'm not that productive when my mouth keep shut. talking to myself is not helping because it is just wrong, i cannot tease myself. =p
2. for this semester my class became bigger. there are 40 of us. at first i was quite worried but like old people say, the more the marrier. i just love all my classmates. it is so happening and lively. of course i met some new people like my dorayaki girl and reunite my old class E mates.
3. i've involved in alot of activites lately and one activity that i think i'm not suit in is NACC. it is so not me to attend such events. thank for the invitation but i think i learned from this lesson.
5. i will start my internship in December and all this internship thingy really scares me. am i ready to do all the works? what if i being assigned to do something that i don't know. plus the fact that my accounting basics is not that strong even i'm now a diploma holder in accountaing, am i going to survive? before that, is there any firm going to take a person like me to be its employee? hmmm....
6. i love holidays but this holidays come not at the right time. classes just started 3 weeks ago and now it's holidays again. *sigh* sicne it is so sudden, nothing much can be planned for this holidays. 5 sahabat pengembara are about to go to redang but like i said it is so sudden. and after this 1 week holidays, i need to adjust my sleeping hours again..
7. owh, i'm so into how i met your mother now. i love ted and robin realtionship and it is sad to watch it ends without they getting married. hehe!! and barney is awesome!

i guess that all that i can think right now. i will update this blog frequently only if my room mate not staring or reading it in front of me. it is not cool having people reading your blog infront of your face. damn it!!

dia kata..

2009-06-22T11:18:00.000-07:00

dia kata...
saya tak serius..
dia kata...
saya suka main-main..

bila saya bersuara,
dia ketawaw
bila saya cuba luahkan rasa,
dia ingat itu sandiwara...

macam mana saya nak buat?
jerit dekat telinga dia kuat-kuat?
tak pun tulis surat..
ke nak kejar dia smpai dia meluat?

dia hebat orangya..
ambil keputusan tak nak lukakan sesiapa..
tak nak 2 sahabat tak bertegur sapa..
ambil langkah berjaga-jaga
sambil pastikan hati dia dijaga
tapi macam mana dengan saya?
saya rasa....
biarla ia berlalu saja..
kalau ada rezeki mesti tak kemana..
dan dia tau nak cari saya di mana...

quote

2009-06-19T05:39:00.000-07:00

look forward but never forget the past
it is history that creates who you are now..

thanks didi~~

suatu ketika dahulu

2009-06-15T23:00:00.000-07:00

need no words
pictures can speak thousands words

i am thankful

2009-06-11T09:34:00.000-07:00

Just now, Najwa just labeled me as 'puyus' (poyo) because she asked me about my FAR and i said i pass it. haha! it was a hell of paper and .....

i am thankful

for let me pass all the papers. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Even my results is not as good as the previous semester but it reflects my efforts during the whole semester. I realised that i've not put enough effort but again, despite this fact I am very thanful to pass all the papers.

I am thankful...

for the smooth sailing You gave me through out this 3 years of uni life. Never facing any failure yet (quiz n test tak kira) an hopefully it will continue till I'm finally graduating.

I am thankful...

to meet the right people at the right time. Even there was some conflicts arose but this people around me always lend their hands, give me help and support. If not, I might not have notes to refer, spot question to guide me and etc. Thanks people. Really appreciate it.

I am thankful...

for the life i have right now. Everything seems to be just on the right track. i know that sometime i do comlains but I'm just a normal human being.

I am thankful for everything...

kita

2009-06-09T07:23:00.000-07:00

kita rasa kita tak pernah bincangkan perkara yang serius dalam bolg kita ni. Hari ni tiba2 rasa mamcam terpanggil nak tulis pasal topik ni. orang selalu la betekak pasal PPSMI, buat debat la, apala dan sekarang timbul pulak isu kalau nak dapat sijil untuk SPM kena lulus bahasa inggeris dulu. saya amat sukala kan bila baca atau dengar berita yang cakap murid-murid kurang cenderung dan cikgu pulak tidak menguasai bahasa inggeris sepenuhnya. sebenarnya semua masalah ini boleh diselesaikan jika murid-murid dan guru tiada sebarnag pilihan. Perasan tak orang dulu-dulu yang belajar waktu zaman penjajah. walaupun mereka hanya bersekolah sehingga peringkat rendah tetapi mereka amatlah fasih dalam bahasa inggeris. kenapa? kerana mereka tiada pilihan ketika itu. Jika mereka ingin belajar, hanya ada satu bahasa pengantar iaitu bahas inggeris. kita juga pernah menglamai pengalaman yang sama. kita datang dari keluarga yang langsung tidak bertutur di dalam bahasa inggeris di rumah. pengetahuan kita mengenai bahasa itu amatlah terhad sehinggalah kita memasuki alam sekolah menengah. ketika di sekolah menengah, persekitaran sekolah kita yang amat menitik beratkan bahasa inggeris telah memaksa kita untuk belajar bahasa tersebut. bayangkanlah ketika hari pertama semasa di tingkatan satu kita dapat tahu bahawa cikgu yang mengajar mata pelajaran bahasa inggeris adalah seorang orang inggeris. Mr John Conolly. Memang tidak ada sepatah pun perkataan bahasa melayu digunakan di dalam kelas. cikgu-cikgu subjek lain juga lebih senang mengajar di dalam bahasa inggeris. semua pengumuman malah perhimpuana di adakan dalam bahasa inggeris. keadaan ini, walaupun tidak menjadikan kita fasih bertutur dan bagus menulis di dalam bahasa inggeris tapi sekurang-sekurangnya membolehkan kita untuk tidak berasa malu bila menggunakan bahasa dunia ini.

permasalahan yang dapat saya cungkil sekarang ialah terlalu matlamat yang ingin dicapai. memartabatkan bahasa melayu, mengukuh penguasaan bahasa inggeris dan lain-lain yang menyebabian tiada pengkhususan matlamat. jalan terbaik ialah, pilih satu agenda dan selesaikannya terlebih dahulu. pastikan keberkesanan dan kejayaan agenda tersebut. jangan jadikan murid-murid sekolah sebagai mangsa.

~~~tiada satu patah perkataan bahasa inggeris di dalam penulisan kita kali ini~~~

kata ibu dengar sahaja....

2009-06-02T06:04:00.000-07:00

on the way back from cikda's wedding we were busy recapping all the thngs happened during the kenduri. One topic that caught my attention was when my mum threw this sentences.
" korang kat Uni jangan tak berkawan. Abah nak kenduri" ( kawan is referring to boyfriend or girlfriend).

haha! just like other parents, they want to see their children get married and ofcourse having a big kenduri.
since i have no intention to find a girlfriend real soon or let we put this way, takde orang nak lagi kot=p, so the responsilibty goes to my sister and brothers, eh brother... the younger one just 15.

The End of a Saga

2009-05-28T20:04:00.000-07:00

i wish i can as loyal as Sucre,
as tough as Lincoln,
and of course as smart as Scofield.
REST IN PEACE MICHEAL SCOFIELD.
now its my time to find my own Sarah Tancredi.

topaz perhentian

2009-05-26T08:20:00.001-07:00

planning phase: it was 15 minutes plan right before ECO paper. you just need to sit with the right people and everything can be realized. No gebang and no false hope.

the travellers: daus (chief), otai, farah, sally and una.

what do we expect: the same scenery as we saw in the internet, the crystal clear water the white sand and free and easy vacation.

what did we get?: the same scenery as pictured in the internet right in front of our eyes, the white, flour smooth sands, sharks, turtles and all kinds of fish swam just under our feet.
una was spotted crying while we were on the speed boat.

what do we missed?: throw una into the open sea because she just can't stop talking, McD's swim thru (hahahahah)

the worst: 8 hours bus ride, everything on island was damn expensive, kaki luka terpijak coral and the vacation is already ended.

the best: the place we'd stayed. local people are so friendly. 4 hours borak time on the 2 nd night and of course the snorkeling trip. i just can't believe that i just dive into the real open sea.

next trip?: just don't want to plan it so early. we just need 15 minutes kn guys??

the ultimate makan time

2009-05-11T10:27:00.000-07:00

this is really going to be so called ultimate makan time for me. It is not even a week yet but i've tasted so many kind of food and all of them are good!

the first day of the holidays, since i've not come back to Tmn Melati for aboaut a month, the food served during the 1st night of the holidays was marvelous.
~yong tau fu, murtabak and ayam percik plus air mata kucing. What cain i ask for more??

then the following day was makan time in Melaka.
~ikan jeank bakar, pari bakar, udang goreng butter, sotong goreng teung, kupang msk sambal, kailan ikan masin, nasi lemak and otak-otak. Cost us RM120. Kind of relief actually because i expectied it will going to be more expensive.

sunday. BBQ for mother's day.
~ayam, udang, sotong. no limit, eat while you can.

monday. having regular meal but towards the evening , there was rojak pasembor on the table and managed to finish 2 bungkus of it. hah! not considering other side dishes lg.

it just 4 days since the holidays started and you can see my eating trend. i'm going back to ipoh on wednesday and kenduri to come, what you can expect i'm going to be in the next 2 month?

luckily, Perhentian is nol food heaven like Penang or Taiping or otherwise, the boat will move real slow.

H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.S

2009-05-10T10:48:00.001-07:00

this is the first and only 2 months holidays in my uni life. so, plan have ben drawn to make it the memorable one.

9-10 may: trip to melaka. MELAKA?? haha! yup. the event already accomplished the moment i write this post. sometime you just missing some part of the place you used to stay. Also, 5 minutes 1 round of KYS compound really bringg back the memories.
21-23 may: perhentian baby! weehoo! seriously i can't wait for this trip but the 8 hours bus ride? *sigh* there will be 6 of us and i just realised that i will go with these 5 people that i'm not usually lepak with. new air.
27 may: champions league final. haha! this is just important as other events. i will not sided on any side this season's final. it is a dream final where the beautiful football will be played by both my favourite teams.
30 may: cikda's wedding. i just love when there is family kenduri. this the only time i can meet all my relatives and this is the right momment for me to do the banci, counting how many new people in the family. this time i guess, there will be two new cousins and nephew or niece i need to double check later.
6 june: maybe will be going to Terengganu again for the man's side kenduri. i'm not so sure about this.
early june: bani got this free tickets to genting and he already asked me to save some days in early june. yet to be confirmed.
mid june: still in planning stage and will definitely depends on my bank balance. Jalan-jalan cari makan in Penang. will pokaikan the two sisiters in penang if this plan become a reality.

not forgetting 5 games bowling with the boys, karaoke+ buffet and makan2 with syazeleen.

more plans come with less bank balance.

confession

2009-04-17T03:10:00.000-07:00

i just made my confession
doesn't really care about the outcome
the important thing is
i've no regret.

i wish i can play

2009-04-17T02:24:00.001-07:00

Mohd

boleh main lg tak?

4:20pmSyafiq

haha

xboleh la bomm

4:21pmMohd

owh...

erm...ok...

no problem bro

ada jumpa kayang kat uitm tak?

4:22pmSyafiq

ada gak hr tue

asal?

nk aku hmbt dia turun pdg jea

4:22pmMohd

nak ajak dia mainla..

4:22pmSyafiq

tunggu command ko jea

haha

4:22pmMohd

siutlaa

hahah

4:22pmSyafiq

bleh2

nnt aku bgtau dia

4:26pmMohd

sape lagi yg ada kat uitm ek?

budak putih2 tu ada kan

chicky kot

ke ape nama dia

4:28pmSyafiq

chicky ada gak kt sini

tp aku dh lama xjumpa dia

4:29pmMohd

lagi2

aku nak kyser yang buleh lari laju macam ko

kayang

ciky

4:29pmSyafiq

hahaha

adeh

sapa ah

FB chat between otai '04 and mat bomm '01

see, they still looking for me. if i can play they don't have do look for me, i will voluntarily myself for the love of the game.

hope never dies~~

Hope and Dream

2009-04-15T01:41:00.000-07:00

26 april is just around the corner. 4 years ago on that date, I had totally transformed myself. On that date, “the old me is dead and gone”.

After a wonderful NORMAL 17 years, 26 april 2005 was the longest day in my life. Right after received the news from a doctor from hospital, my house suddenly full with silent. While I was try not to cry to loud, the silent allow me to hear my mom’s tears rolled down her cheeks and dropped onto the floor. The news really broke her heart. My dad just speechless while my siblings try to adjust their feelings. On that date, I was declared as

“OKU card holder”

“ kurang upaya penglihatan”

“ partially blind”

So many titles to describe me since then. It is so hard to belief. Everything changed in a split of second. My brain and my emotions wrestled to adapt the situation and starting from that day, I started to live in my dream. The only place where I can be who I used to be.

If in reality, the doctor don’t even allowed me to jog but in the place called dream, I am all I want me to be. I can run over the hurdles. I can play in my favourite position, winger, no 8, flanker. I can kick and chase the ball back. It just like before. So perfect! The important thing is I can see the world with clear view. I also can drive. Oh God!! I can do all the things I want to do.

But, till one night, again i was in the place I really love, dream. But this time something different happens. I wasn’t playing. I just sit on the bench and I hardly to see what is happening on the field. It was a real me now in the dream. No longer the old me. I get up and try to figure out what my dream try to tell me. Then I realized. This is it. The time has come for me to accept myself the way I am now. Even though it was hard for me but I have to accept my faith as even in my dream I’m no longer the old me. That’s the turning point, the moment I finally accepted my faith.

If before, I used to get mad at people who make fun of my condition but since then I don’t really care about it because anything that came out from their mouth and whatever I try to do to punish them it will never change my faith.

Now it’s already 4 years. It is not a day to celebrate nor to be sad. This is the day to be remembered and even my dream is no longer on my side, there is still hope. Hope to see the light at the end of this really long dark tunnel.

Hope is the best thing

Maybe the best of things

And no good thing ever dies.

quote

2009-04-13T08:46:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you just need someone to show you something you can’t see for yourself and it will change you forever

random

2009-04-07T08:43:00.000-07:00

1. supposed i have daily check up for unknown penyakit but i didn't go. Mgla unknown kn sbb tak pegi check but i'm tired of this hospital stuff and i don't want to smell that hospital's smells anymore.
2. i have mix feeling in this few days. well, it is hard to tell you because i'm really not sure what's happenig. *duhh, hati and perasaan matters.
3. this is the last week of my 5th semester. i will be facing the final exam again in 2 weeks. carry marks for some subjects amat merisaukan especially FAR450. owh, jadual exam quite ok except they put FAR and LAW back to back. fuhh, how am i going to handle the infos that need to be store in my brain??
4. i'm going back to ipoh this friday. well, it has been 2 months. Hope to get chance to eat my favourites and balik kampung kot to visit my tok wan.
5. i just finish editing my french video. actually the videa already completed last week but i wrongly match the matrix no of my friends with others. hehehe! so i got ot edit the closing part. i can see other friends btungkus lumus to finish this assigment with carries 30% of overall marks.
6. this semester is really musim sakit. a few of my friends admitted because of denggi, some having demam and batuk teruk. hope every one is going to be fine for the finals.
7. i gave 4 stars for fast n furious 4.
8. PC fair is on the weekend and that's the other reason why i'm going back to ipoh. better to run away than to see my cash run out from my wallet.

weeeeeeeee!!!! =D

2009-04-01T06:53:00.000-07:00

can you see that big round smile???
saya rasa macam ada sekumpulan rama-rama sedang terbang bebas di dalam perut saya.
lalalalalalala
saya ada 2 test lusa tp saya kesah apa
please make this feeling stay longer.

KYSer

2009-03-27T11:00:00.000-07:00

i just put up the kyser banner on my blog. hmm, sebenarnya tomorrow is KYSER WEEKEND and i'm going to miss it for the 2nd successive year. Damn!
It is always a pleasure to be back to KYS. I just love the place and almost everything about it. seriously! Even after 5 years, the memories still running in and out my mind evryday and i won't feel bored to tell people about my KYS years stories. Well, that's the place where otai were born. the place that taught me so many things, from just a little boy to a man who can stand on his own feet.

If i'm not dependent on others to go to KYSER WEEKEND i will be there each and every year. But, since no advos boys intrested to attend the event this year because there is not enough quorum as its being held in march and many of batcmates are around the globe plus i have test on sunday morning, again i have just to forget about it. hmmm...

owh, the reason why the banner is there, it is to show how proud i am to be part of KYS. it also to mark my love and loyalty towards the beloved school. Do you have no idea how lucky i am to have my name registered as a student of this greatest institution. Than Kolej Yayasan Saad.

how does if feels....

2009-03-22T00:42:00.000-07:00

to be damn rich
well, i've been surrounded by rich kids ever since. Just want to know how they feel about their life. they just born rich and go on to be someone rich. people say money can't buy every thing but still a lot of things money can buy. owh, i've this theory about the rich people. Someone who is really really rich he tend to be so down to earth while people who half rich, i mean they rich but not so rich, they behave like they got everything. They will showing off everyting, try to let others know they bought something new.. hmm.
owh, i have this friend who has unlimited fund. i wonder how it feels to be like him, mampu berbelanja tanpa berfikir.....

to play infront of 80,000 screming fans
how's rooney felt for every game he played? the noise, the atmosphere, the tense. Can i handle that situation? i've the experence to play infront of 300 screaming school mates during my rugby years. Yes, just short of 79,700 people. 300 pun dah kecut perut.

to wear that tiny clothes in public
how do you girls feel when you just wearing mini skirts and tank top in public? did you guys feel cold? some girls just like to be in that tiny clothes so that they can attract the boys attention but honestly, do you really feel comfortable in it? it's like you don't feel anything hanging pun kan? hmmm...

to get highest in the FAR 450 test
i must ask qosh how he felt when he got the highest mark for test 1. arghh. damn! i don't know whhy but for this semester i'm not able to find the way to catch up with this subject. I've gone through some tough papers before buat for this one..
should i change to how it feels to PASS the FAR450 test instead?
u tell me....

masuk wad lagi

2009-03-21T22:33:00.001-07:00

place: wad Pusat Kesihatan UiTM
duration: half day ( the shortest of all)
penyakit : undisclosed
punca : FAR 450-consolidated income statement

i have to do daily check up starting from today. still figure out what damages FAR 450 brings to my organs. Brain cells malfunction maybe. =p

tag

2009-03-11T07:31:00.000-07:00

by genie

The challenge is :
- Go to your photos folder in your computer.
- Go to the 6th folder of your photo.
- Go to the 6th photo of that folder.
- Put the picture and the description of it on your blog.
- Tag 6 friend.

here me go..

syafiq dan taufiq..
hubungan: sepupu..heee

boring..

2009-03-11T07:23:00.000-07:00

you can pick your friend,
you can pick your nose,
but
you can't pick your friend's nose...

Answer me..

2009-03-07T04:02:00.000-08:00

What would you do if you loved someone more than anything else and you could never have them?

it is easy to say,

go on
move on
u will find some1 better...
but
world taught me
it is not about some1 better
prettier or whatsoever..
it just
this person
already took that special place
and even angel cannot replace.

bak kata pepatah melayu, tak kena batang hidung sendiri tak tau rasanya

dedicated to a friend
somehow i can relate his dilemma with mine
hope he will get better soon

layu

2009-03-06T10:04:00.000-08:00

Aku lihat layu dalam Melayu
Aku pasti bukan aku seorang saja yang nampak
Ada juga bercadang bertanya tuan punya
Tapi bercampur risau dengan tak tergamak
Nanti dikata tak bersyukur, dikata tak sedar diri
Jadi aku menyendiri, memerhati dan akhirnya mengakui
Yang kita sendiri
Membiarkan bunga raya melayu ke kanan
Dan dibiar bunga tak cantik mekar di kiri

Aku lihat layu dalam Melayu
Tanah air kita yang punya
Kita siram, kita baja tapi angin api kita lupa
Mereka merancang masa menjilat bangsa

13 harimau bertukar menjadi mangsa
Kita lupa nenek moyang kaya-raya
Jangan sekali-kali digadai harta-bendanya

Ku lihat layu dalam Melayu
Ku lihat layu dalam Melayu
Ku lihat layu dalam Melayu

Takkan Melayu hilang di dunia
Ya... tapi apa guna tak hilang di dunia
Kalau kewujudan tidak dirasa
Petah berbahasa kudrat tak berjasa
Orang berbudi kita hanya tahu merasa
Selalu lari bila dirapat
Selalu malu bila soalan diaju
Selalu segan memberi pendapat
Rela mengikut dari meneraju
Belum nyanyi sudah bersorak
Suka berjanji dalam borak
Bukan kata tak ada otak
Cuma tak berfikir di luar kotak

Ku lihat layu dalam Melayu
Ku lihat layu dalam Melayu
Ku lihat layu dalam Melayu

Aku jadi sayu
Bunga menangis dia mendayu
Mahu jadi cantik tetapi ragu
Aku merayu
Bangunlah semula hidup kembali
Jangan tunggu matahari mati
Cepatlah mekar sebelum terlerai

Perjuangan kita belum selesai

Perjuangan kita belum selesai

Perjuangan kita belum selesai

malique feat tun mahathir

2009

2009-03-06T09:39:00.000-08:00

dengan lafaz bismillah saya memulakan agenda 2009 saya.

this the 9th week of 2009 and this is my 1st post for the year. Blame nobody except myself, i find that my inspiration faded away as 2008 passed by. Well, just for your info, im a person who likes to live in the past. So, base on that fact, here i will conclude all the events that took place in the first 9 weeks of 2009.......

* i started off the year dgn ditahan semasa roadblock because the two people infont did not buckle up their seat belts while the other 3 at the back fullfill the responsibility. luckily no summon was issued.

*the main highlight during this period is how i managed to stay at uitm for a month without going back to tmn melati. tonnes of assigments and homeworks plus common test did took my weekend away. and today, i just being scolded by eton for not checking the economics answer and i need to go back to uitm on sunday instead of monday because i got quiz on tuesday. Damn!!

*owh, my birthday. this is the best year ever. thanks guys for the wishes, (sms, facebook, fster and the video created for me) i plan to upload the video but i need to ask for permission from those contributed their images and voices in that video. not forgotten, the first ever surprise paety in my life. seriously, never thought that ada org akan buat such party for me. Really appreciate it.

what else? suddenly i realised it is hard to gain back all the stories. i'm planning to have my own broadband so that i don't have to wait untill weekend to get conneted to internet.

so 2009, 43 weeks to go through.....

2008

2008-12-28T09:11:00.000-08:00

SYAFIQ B. ABDUL HARIS HALMI
PERFORMANCE REPORT
FOR THE YEAR ENDED 31st DECEMBER 2008

Many things took place during year 2008, This report will provide the overall performance of the stated individu during the year. This report will be divided into certain criteria.

Health

received good news during the yearly eye checkout. Eyes conditions getting better and i slightly can read smaller prints.
managed to lose weight during ramadhan but it only last for a minutes during the first syawal.
mental and emotional are in good conditions even facing some hard time during the year.

Finance

Not facing any kegawatan. Thanks to JPA but bit boros during the year. PC fair, aidilfitri mega sales and new phone got the big alloction from my pocket. As usual, never berkira in food so kinda spend a lot in this section but managed to save some in ASB (bangga =p). haa, phone bills decrease significantly after month of June sebab memegang title single and also because I changed number to celcom.

Study

Even though not put enough effort, but still survive the two killer papers Law and Far 400. Huge relief to see "LU" in the exam slips. "LU" indicates i passed the papers. Learned a lesson during intersession as i nearly fail my paper (far 350) because i was too kedekut to buy book for that subject. Saya amat bernasib baik! Graduated with Diploma in Accountancy and straight continuing to degree level.

Social

lucky to be surrounded with great people and cool friends. Gaduh dgn amirul for a week during intersession. Biasala, amirul kn gedik..haha! no offence mirul. not forgetting crisis with other ppeople tp xla klakar cm kes mirul tue. Sorry for those people yg ada terasa hati apa2ke. New classmates jgk and berpeluang bersosial di beberapa majlis sebab menjadi emcee.. yeah! Owh yea, class trip to PD was fun and batch dinner was da bomm! KYS cycle, failed to attend this year KYSER Weekend due to some reason but can’t wait for the next year events. Met ramai advos during bbuka. It is always fun to meet u people.

Love

2008 was not a good year for love. Putus cinta pada bulan Jun. haih! Tried everything but it just couldn't work out. What to do? Mix feelings about things happened. Since then never get any chance to find suri dalam hati.. ceah! should i declare 2009 as love haunting year? Depend on situations. hehe!

Notes:
Report prepared 2 days earlier that the report’s date. Any matters arise will be included in the coming year report.
Report has been prepared with true and fair view

Yang menjalankan tugas

-------------------------
SYAFIQ ABDUL HARIS HALMI

year end...

2008-12-27T03:03:00.000-08:00

wanna know if..............

for 2008?
wait for my year end report that will be published soon

taG...

2008-12-26T07:17:00.000-08:00

rules and regulations :

1. Apabila telah terpilih dengan malangnya, silalah menulis 16 perkara paling rawak sama ada tentang fakta, perangai tak senonoh ataupun hala tuju hidup anda.
2. Silalah hasut 16 orang lain untuk melakukan perkara ini.
3. Sila tanda manusia yang telah menanda anda di peringkat awal.
4. Ketahuilah, jika anda terpilih ia adalah kerana anda juga manusia biasa yang perlukan perhatian dan kasih sayang yang secukupnya ketika bayi.

........

16 perkara paling rawak tentang saya :

1. this is my first time doing tag..hee
2. plan to be YESMAN in 2009 as i just watched the movie yesterday..hee
3. gain 7 kkilos during this smemester break..hee
4. i just managed to get a room in Perindu for another semester.
5. i love travelling but hate long journey....
6. so far, dh msk operation theater for 6 times..
7. food lover. eat almost everyting
8. this is my fav and lucky no....
9. still try downloading gossip girl and prison break latest episode but slalu stuck! haih
10. find sleep more important than exercise
11. still have dream and desire to play rugby again..
12. remember all the track and field world record since in kindergarden.
13. lately ulang alik kl-ipoh using new KTM shutle antara bandar.. murah
14. missing some1 that cannot be disclosed here..heeeeee
15. felt in love with this white ZARA shoes.. hmm..
16. yes! dh habis....

16 lucky people..

whoever wants to be lucky.. better do this tag dgn sukarela

HelP!!!

2008-12-24T05:15:00.000-08:00

it's been a while i think.. hmm, i just don't know what to write. i've composed some actually but i don't feel like post it. Pelik! well. where can i get the ideas??

and now it comes the new semester. i felt like i just sat for my part 4 final yesterday and in few days i need to be back in UiTM for the new semester. Haih! what to do,like it or not i've to go through all the learning and assigments again. lagipun cuti pon bosan gak.

talking about cuti, it end up with me gaining more kilogramms. hehe! i was so semangat for the first few days of holidays to jog and exercise. i managed to jog for 4 or 5 days and after realised that sleep is more precious, i could not get my lazy body out of bed.

besides sleeping, the only activity berfaedah that i did during the holidays was jalan2 to Kuantan. it's not a well planned trip. the idea just came out and i contact some of my friends and only two intrested, qosh and simbab.

even there was a few incidents happened during the trip but i think the vacations was quite ok. tak termasuk 7 hours in bus from ipoh to kuantan. it was a hell of journiey plus it was during the day. i don't mind to travel that long during night because i can sleep. owh, Balok was beautiful plus waves were real big as it was monsoon season. it was my first time camping at the beach and i don't want to do it again. huh! the bestest place is air terjun sg pandan. i don't even know there is such place in Malaysia. i thought that type of waterfall only exist in amazon. here some pictures during my visit to kuantan.

ipoh mali...

2008-11-19T16:11:00.000-08:00

i'm off to ipoh today and that's mean i will not have internet for a week till my rehearsal day. despite always complaining about ipoh but when people start to talk about it somehow i feel that citytism rush into my blood. wah! gler smgt. yeah, i was born and brought up in ipoh but as ipohan i don't really know the jalan instead i'm more expert in guiding people in melaka and shah alam. haha! waht a real ipohan huh?? i think the busy michelle yeaoh pun tau lg byk jln kt ipoh than me. several thing you should know about ipoh :

. there is one malay settlement a few minutes from ipoh town called gugusan manjoi which is the largest kg melayu in malaysia. i used to stay in kg manjoi for 17 ears. dr lahir smpai hbs form5
. ipoh has it's own wembley. not a football stadium but the railway station. check it out. the dome design just like the one in wembley.
. ipoh has it's uptown too called gerbang malam. but most ipoh folks called it TKK short form of Taman Kanak-Kanak. cool!
. there's no McD in Ipoh Parade. Bengang gler sbb kat shopping mall lain ada...
. owh, not many ipoh own taxi drivers will take you to manjoi. the roads just make them pening.
. town bus, Citybus and perak roadways suck! seriously
. come to flea market on sunday morning. ipohan called it loken..

so i gave a true and fair view of ipoh i guess...
come to ipoh and you will know..
ipoh ipoh mali...

being so me...

2008-11-18T22:30:00.000-08:00

"syafiq abd haris"...

"to this student, please enter the hall, syafiq...."
'syafiq abd haris halmi, please put up your hand"

damn! i was so popular during the exam weeks. i've been through 5 final examninations and nothing change since from the very first time i entered UiTM. i always hope that the invigilator will not call up my name out loud but i just have to accept it. it surely will happen unless one of the invigilator recognised me. well, who's on earth didn't know me?? haha! i'm not proud of it pun btw. i wonder what other people thinking when they heard my name being called. "what's wrong with this guy?" "why he should enter the hall first?" i don't know... maybe worst than that..

owh, when i was in form 5 i told this one girl that while i'm studying in uni, i don't want people to know me. I don't want to get involves in sports and i just want to be a ordinary low profile student. i guess, i managed to not get involves in sports but am i a low profile student? hahaha! don't think so.. Pejabat perindu surely knows and hates me for all the problems i caused in order for me to get college. Level 11 ( faculty office) lgla. my first day i already made havoc. the pendaftar need to settle so many things for me and the programme coordinator have to entertainment me every semester.. surat to exam unit la, co-curiculum cannot be registered la.
among lecturers?? they have to prepare bigger font question papers for me for quizes and test and i'm sure all other lecturers aware that they have to do the same thing if they unfortunately had to teach my class. Pity all of people who get involved in all this things.
again, i'm not proud for being so recognised because i creates work load to them but i will make those people who helped me proud of what they have done to me. for that i must achieve something so that they can say..
Pn Rozilah (coordinator) : if i'm not helping him with all the letters he will surely not at that level

pengurus perindu : kalau aku tak bagi dia duduk kolej dulu, mesti tak berjaya mcm sekarang..

exam unit : if we were not prepared his size 18 question papers, he must not be the same guy today...

haha! berangan cukup kuat but i will makesure it will be a reality..

my new phone

2008-11-18T20:55:00.000-08:00

LG KF300

about *blank

2008-11-18T07:37:00.000-08:00

exam is over.. yes! after 3 weeks of tension and tension some more the tension period has come to an end. see, how tension i was during the exam weeks. haih! For all the papers that i've been through i just hope i will pass. I'm not even asking for Bs, pass is good enough for me.
now, i'm a free man for one and half month but for the first day of the holidays i already get bored.

well, i don't really know what to do during this holidys. For now i'm just waiting for the big day's coming.. my convocation day.. yes! it will be held on 30th nov and the rehearsal is on 27. After two years of tesnsion (again..haha) i finally get the scroll as the reward. it's all dat? a paper? no,no..i just bought my self a present. haha! a new phone. LG kf300. i got it the night i finished my exam. i usually think it is stupid to give present to myself but i just want to make it sounds good as i just throwed some hundreds bucks for that phone. Pheww!!

owh, talking about holidays, we surely have vacation on mind right? hmm, some of my friends will be leaving malaysia for their vacations. eh,ada yg dh fly pon. i kind of jealous to see they have the oppurtunity to be around the globe while me just stuck here. after all, i just remembered a saying from a friend of mine " sume org ada bahagian dia masing2" so i just wait for my bahagian to come la kn.. ntah2, when it's come i than just realize how luckyyto be in Malaysia but still..it's always my dream to see other countries as well as their culture.

and for now, just kekeringan idea....
better stop and mencari ilham and sumber inspirasi

fruits of life...

2008-11-04T09:44:00.000-08:00

"an apple a day can keep the doctor away"

is it true? or it may only a belief. Often when people have set something in their mind and they stick to it slowly what they are believe will turn in to reality. it may take 1 day or sometimes to change that belief into reality and there are situations when it doesn't turn out to be what it hope to be.

to be honest i keep thinking about tomato lately and what it has to dowith apple? it is simple. i cannot find any quote related to tomato and for me tomato and apple is the same person. oops! did i said 'person'? well.....

i truly believe in something. with all my body and soul. This belief that i just cannot run from it. Many things happened but it still there. never faded but it growing stronger. sometimes i feel very tired to have this but i cannot do anything. Am i too weak? or it is so hard for me to accpt the faith? why should u turn to tomato/apple when you already have grape in front of you? or pineapple maybe. eventhough there's 'apple' in pineapple but it is not the same.

i wonder..

how long would it be..

but i still believe

y=mx + c

2008-11-04T05:51:00.000-08:00

i'm now in the middle of exam weeks. I just finished my Qmt paper early this evening. Just like before, i entered the exam hall confidently and walked out the door with mix feelings. Well, it's Qmt ( statistic analysis) so i just pray that i will pass the paper. i hate math since i was in kindergarden. i was never really good at it or i never learn from my mistake? knowing math is all about practice, i still 'reading' the math equations. hmm, i think math is just not my subject. 2 days of 'reading' math were really a disaster. i felt like my brain want to explode. I don't know what will happen if i try to solve the math problem. Permenent mental disorder kot.

Talking about math is not my subject makes me wonder what am i really good at. Academic? i don't think so. Sports? i don't even jog now. music? haha! i listen to what people listen and i don't know how to play any music instrument. so? what am i good at? i know, i really good at being sarcastic and also in buat org sakit hati. yes! that are my expertise. Am i proud of this? not really but sometimes it is just fine because ada org ckp just stay the way i am . I don't know if the sentence means the other way round or that guy is just being honest. owh, i'm talking crap. But i think it's ok considering i could not think wisely due to damage coused by Qmt paperam i just sat for.

owh, i've been thinking to get on a holiday trip. Perhentian or pulau kapas for few days with friends. Does anyone interested? call me... owh, another thing, reading others blog with so much ilmiah posts and current issues make me wonder whether my purpose of keeping a blog is appropriate? hmm,xtaula..

wah, i obviously don't know what i try to convey here. better stop right now before i come up with something i should not to.

letih+penat+tiada inspirasi=myself right now

Bath Rugby

2008-11-04T05:29:00.000-08:00

it is gorgeous right? yes! definitely...
i would to take this opportunitiy to thank ms Syazeleen Mustafa...
no word can describe my joy the day your parcel arrived.
thank again.

Basikal Tua Opah

2008-10-10T05:49:00.001-07:00

"long, turun aa, tak boleh jalan"
adik kecoh, dia yang tak larat kayuh...
inilah kegilaan di hari raya ke-2 dan yang menjadi mangsanya basikal tua opah. Inilah kenderaan rasmi opah ke bendang, pergi mengaji dan juga pergi kedai pak lang. oh yea, lawa tak background kat bealakang tu?? haa, kampung saya betul2 kampung, tak macam sesetengah orang yang kampung dia kat taman perumahan or kat Kg Baru. itu bukan kampung. klau dulu blk kg mesti terjun parit tp sekarang dah tak dah. tapi kampung saya ttp best.
berbalik kepada basikal tua opah, setelah gagal dikayuh kerana tayar basikal tue kecik and kami dua org nie cm kingkong, so terpaksa diletakkan di tempat asalnya. Opah mesti lega basikalnya masih ada hingga ke hari ini dan tidak menjadi korban musim perayaan.

RAYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-10T05:17:00.000-07:00

It was a great raya. yes!! i did enjoyed this year raya very much. owh, this picture taken on pagi raya. with the whole family. i guess we don't have much time to gether like this as me and my siblings are getting older and obviously in few years to come, we surely have our own agenda on raya day. ceh, jauhnya fikir. But it was nice, lepas semayang and before balik kampung, the whole family set for photo sesion.

at my first day puasa in ipoh, which was on the 28 ramadhan, i went to my aunty bazaar stall. the were 40 types of laup pauk and what can you say having this big guy choosing his lauk for bbuka. it was more bbaloi then buffet at any hotels. choose anything u like for free.. hahaha! ikan pari bakar n air asam, masak lemak suun n pucuk, udang besar. fuhh!

the day before raya, as usual we bergotong royong preparing lemang and others. it just a annual routine. On that day, just like others, i was busy sms-ing and replying raya greeting. i did received one kad raya. thanx gemok a.k.a nisa hanan for the card. hmm, so far i never fail to get kad raya even all people have turn to techno greeting.

food, everything was great. owh, i have thie best and the worse raya dish in the same house. I went this house that served kek lapis sarawak. it taste damn good. i couldn't stop chening. and the worse then come. Laksa Sarawak. i've tasted it before and i kinda like it but this time it was horrible. i guess there are many types of laksa sarawak and i will be more careful nextime. btw, on the 4th raya i went to 1 kenduri and 4 open houses. hahaha! all the effort to losse 4 kilos in ramadhan gone in just one day. but ireally can't help it. bihun sup, laksa kari, roti jala, soto.....

now, sedikit keluhan rasa. watching my sis driving around happily and my brother easily going anywhere with his bike make me feel sad. yeala, i'm stuck at home and if i want to go anywhere i need to ask for someone help. it was really upsetting me. if before, they would ask my help but now... i really wish i can beraya on my own. visitinna my friends and all but sadlyit would be happen near future. nevermind, maybe i was destinded to have driver for the rest of my life.

other than that, it was great. i even thinking to skip classes on monday and tuesday and continue my holiday in ipoh. but no chance. final is getting nerar and alot of things need to be settled. Now,20 more days left in syawal and open houses are waiting....

syawal

2008-09-27T07:15:00.000-07:00

Get Hari Raya Graphics Here

dikesempatan ini, saya ingin menyusun 10 jari memohon ampun di atas semua salah dan silap, keceluparan mulut ini, keburukan tingkah laku, ketidak senonoh perangai dan halalkan yang termakan dan terminum.
selamat hari raya
maaf zahir dan batin

MyReader

2008-09-26T06:53:00.000-07:00

ok, in this post i would like to introduce all of you to a friend of mine. A really good friend of mine. Let use 'her' because i like it most when i can be around girls as my new idol is Chuck Bass. Her name is MyReader. Why MyReader? It is simply because she helps me to read. Having my current eyes conditions. i can't read all small printed text but with MyReader. it is no reason for me to not to pursuit my study. This machine is really user friendly. All i need to do i to place books or anything i wish to read on the platform and then press the start button. MyReader will scan the text and i can choose the text size that suit me. It also have many other features and i kind of malas to explain everything here. hehe. owh, you can ask any boys who often lepak at my room on how cool this machine works. At the beginning i thought this machine is a prtable computer where i can bring it to class but sadly it is as heavy as me. For two yers and a half this machine has helped me alot. Without it i do't think i can complete my diploma. Can you imagine reading Taxation or Law books using magnifier?? i bet that i will crack my neck. As i remember, my weird questions came from those who just have a look at this machien. " wher's the CPU?" and "macam basketball punya ring jea" . The next time people ask me about this thing i woud tell them that it is an Alien Ware computer.. hehe!

owh, i would like to take this oppurtunity to thank KYSM family for sponsoring this machine. without your help, it will be almost possible for me to get RM20,000 to buy this machine and i wouldn't know what my life would be without it.

Ramadhan 1429 hijrah

2008-09-20T10:45:00.000-07:00

Time flies and now it is already 2oth ramadhan and surely it means 10 days left to hari raya. this time, it just a normal ramadhan for me. Back to basic, no official weeklu buka puasa day and so on. Just enjoy bbuka with friends with no one special. hehe! hmm, i want to summarise what was happening so far during this ramadhan.

. my class having bbuka puasa damn early. first week of ramadhan. same place and bleh dikatakn same menu.
. roti white mighty bun menjadi menu harian ketika bersahur. i'm so dissapointed with lauk served at kafe. Memualkan
. nasi dagang is regular meal for bbuka and i kinda felt in love with air mata kucing.. blehke air mata kucing menyembuhkn penyakit mata??
. bbuka puasa with anis n gee. after along time of hiding and running finally i got both of them.
. advocators buka puasa get2gether organised by xibo. it was fun because alot of ppl make their effort to come. it always a pleasure to meet all of u guys.
. terawih kt Pusat Islam lama gler. Iman bc surah pnjg2 but suprisingly it so contra with masjid tmn melati.
. 17 sept bsamaan 17 ramadhan. tlepas sahur!!!
. on the same day, went to warehouse sale with aki, prof and amir. damn tired
. 20 ramadhan, bbuka bsama kak sue kt kg baru. thanx sis for nasi kerabu.

hmm, i guess that's all that i can think right now. for the last 10 days i hope more things to come and xponteng terawih. own, xshopping lg. also can't wait to buka puasa kt ipoh.

GossipGirl...

2008-09-20T10:04:00.001-07:00

after along time without new post and now i came ot with this topic..hehe.. i just finished watching Gossip Girl season 1.. agak lmbt butthanx to eton for the dvds. It just so sudden. i never thought to watch this series but we bumped into this conversation and the next day she brought the dvds to class. owh, i watched 2 or 3 episodes on tube but can't really catch up with the story and my sis get really pissed off because she need to explain everything to me.

hmm, is that way of life really exist?? i guess so. i know even in Malaysia there is a community like that. sleeping on money and don't even know how to do with it. what i learned that the more money u have the more problem u will face. just what happened in this story. they jest a school children. 14, 18 years old but their lives are so complicated. it's all about money and also prestige, glamour etc. btw, i like the idea to stay in hotel as home. i meant it really wow and it just i like to stay at hotels. Hotels make me feels that i'm just in total kaya gaban. hehe

but above allthis things, where on earth they find this blake lively a.k.a serena van der woodsen. she is not that gorgeous but she is very attractive. seriously. she might not be so jolie compared to blaire but there is something in serena van der woodsen that conquered me. hehe! and honestly she the main reason i watche d tis series. so, now i'm finished with season 1. Am i going to watch season 2? hmm, depends, because once i get started, it is hard for me to not to finsih it in 1 day and i hate to wait untill it fully download or forthe next episode to be availabe.

"you're nobody until you're talked about Gossip Girl"

hahahah!

Saya Ada Alarm Clock

2008-09-05T21:38:00.000-07:00

saya ada alarm clock

tik tok tik tok

saya ada alarm clock

besar dan bulat rupanya elok

saya ada alarm clock

berdering sangat kuat at 12 o'clock

saya ada alarm clock

monyok lepas sahur, berbuka pasti seronok

Pertahankan Hak Kita

2008-08-15T11:09:00.000-07:00

pictures taken in front of Counselorry

otai kembali beraksi

2008-08-14T07:13:00.000-07:00

otai kembali menggegarkan gelanggang. Tapi gegaran kali ini lebi hebat kerana berat sudah melebihi 90 kg..huhu!

boots pada malam tersebut di sponsor oleh umar. Sesudah hampir 4 tahun tidak menyarung boots, satu aliran tenaga dapat dirasakan meresap ke seluruh otot betis dan peha lalu memecahkn molelul-molekul lemak.

cuba mencari dimana bola dan cuba membetulkan pernafasan. Menyedut hampir semua oksigen yang available pada malam tersebut. Dapat melakukan satu percubaan tepat tapi berjaya dinafikan oleh kecekapan simbab. Berjaya bertahan selama 10 minit sebelum dada terasa seperti hendak meletup dan mengambil keputusan untuk keluar. Percubaan pertama dikira amat berjaya. Jika berkesempatan, padang ragbi akan di takhluki. just wait n see..

p/s: klau mak aku tau nie mampos kena marah. Susah dia jaga time sakit....

marriage = capital expenditure

2008-08-14T03:37:00.000-07:00

one of my friend just get maried last week. Im so sorry becaouse i could not attend the wedding ceremony. I have this conversation about this young marriage with oneof my firend and he came out with this theory. HOpe he don't mind i write it here.

marriage= capital expenditure. Having accountant to be friends around, everything in life seems to have connection with FRS. For those who doesn't know, FRS is Financial Reporting Standard. Bab-bab kahwin nie pun bleh relate to FRS. First, what is capital expenditure?

Capital expenditures (CAPEX or capex) are expenditures creating future benefits. A capital expenditure is incurred when a business spends money either to buy fixed assets or to add to the value of an existing fixed asset with a useful life that extends beyond the taxable year.

or in simple sentence, capital expenditure incurs when we are buying fixed assets and in this perspective, kahwin is the fixed asset as it have long useful live and it costly of course! haha! owh, and it also will bring future benifits. This genius friend of mine said, he created this theory because, fixed assets must be depreciated and also can be revalued. Depreciation in kahwin happens because as time goes on, couple might find it they are no longer intrested to each other and revaluation plak happens when the couple manage to keep their relatinship as sweet as their honeymoon days and even better years to years. Now, look at the calculation part plak...

initial cost

items/events RM

merisik 1000
bertunang
-cincin 1000
-hantaran tanda 1000
kahwin
-cincin 1000
-barang-barang 2000
-wang hantaran 8888
-mas kahwin 90
kenduri
- food (rm8 x 2000) 16000
-miscellenous 5000
TOTAL 35978

Fuh! look at that cost. it just an estimated cost. it might be higher. After we know the inital cost now we can find the depreciation for each year. let say the useful life of the marriage is 50 years so we now divide the total cost by 50. RM719.56. it means that the marriage will depreciate by RM 719.56 each year. And of course Siti Nurhaliza depreciate more because she cost more. Revaluation may also take place. For example, someting happened in yourmarriae and you manage to survive it, the value of your marriage might boost up. using the new value, divide by the remaining useful life then u will get the new depreciation expense.

cool isn't it? how we can manupulate accounting theory. so for those for about to get married, think wisely. hahaha! owh, the fixed assets may get damange too. So, be careful

let go..

2008-08-14T03:17:00.000-07:00

Have you ever realized that we meet the right people at the right time? We often misunderstood that when someone walks out from our lives, he or she is so cruel, selfish and just left us wondering. But we never thought that they actually just completed their job and responsibilities and it is the time for them to go.

Ok, now look at the simple way. When we are sick we meet a doctor. The doctor, give his best effort, trying to cure us, give advise etc and, after we get better I believe we don’t have to meet the doctor again. Right? For other example, we met barber only when we want to cut hair, we don’t meet barber every day.

The same thing applies in friendship and relationship. Friends come and go. people walk in and walk out. Often, we just meet people , out from nowhere and suddenly they become our friends, be around us, make us comfortable and suddenly afterp a while they are gone. Some of us might find it so difficult to continue with our routine after someone is leaving and some other just doesn’t feel anything. For those yang “kehilangan” they may think that it is better for them to not knowing the one who is leaving at the very first place. But it is totally wrong to think in such way.

This idea just crossed my mind when I was having along YM with my friend. She totally agreed with this idea. When we meet new people, they have been assigned with certain job. Hnn, for example maybe the reason why I met Aki is because he will guide me on how to be a fat guy and after that he might go. ( I sit next to Aki now and that’s why I choose him as example, and please don’t go Aki) haha! so does other people. They have their own job. It may to teman us, or to make us know who we are or just simply they are around just to make us happy.

It just a simple cycle. when someone is leaving, others will come. But it may takes years to forget or even after hundreds people came we still remembering the one who leaving. But don't worry, it shows that we are normal. Learn to let go because we never know the future. and i'm learning....hmmmmm

Emceeing

2008-08-01T07:16:00.000-07:00

what a job. Emceeing? I just couldn't believe that i've got involved in this thing. If before, during my school years, i've never been up on stage to handle any occasion,even the school assembly. But i just found the other talent of me. haha! it's not exactly talent but this emceeing thingy just suit me perfectly because i like to talk and i talk alot. For now, i just benig an emcee for 2 events, AFTAS Futsal Nitte and Accountancy Day. Both events were very happening and i got the chance to conquere the mic along with my emcee partner, Oscar. Ppl called us doubleO, osctai... apa2 jeala. The most important thing is we just like to talk, merapu and kutuk + kenakan org. eh, we don't hear any feedback fromother ppl about our performance. It seems that we don't really care abaot what ppl think abaout us. We just talk, talk and talk but we follow the protocol tau. owh, another events will be coming soon, bbq futsal. i'm not going to be the emcee for that night but i will play futsal. Yes, it's happening. I want to build a team from those who never kick a ball before to play againts rest of the batch. It's also going to be my first time kicking the ball after school era. Can't wait for it.

hurdles

2008-07-11T10:35:00.000-07:00

"you run

you hit

you fall

but don't ever give up"

a picture...

2008-07-11T09:15:00.000-07:00

what can i tell you from a picture? i'm using this picture as my profile picture for my yahoo messenger and just now someone asked me to changed it. she said i'm cheating others by using this picture. hahaha! yeala tue. all the people in my YM list know me and they do know my size now. It is not that i'm still living in the past but it is good to remember that i somehow happened to be so slim those days. I send this picture to one of my friend throuhg YM and can you guess what was his comment?

"ko amik gmbr bdk africa mana nie?"

haha! gler kurang ajar but yet he still admit that i was looking so athletic. If i'm not mistaken, this picture was taken during 2004 MSS Melaka rugby final. KYS v MOZAC. That was one of my memorable game because I was really in form that day. I can't remember i scored how many tries. But towards the end of the match i was really upset with my coach because he subtitituted me. Afterall it still one of the best game ever besides the previous year fianl with Melaka High School and the game with ACS Singapore. owh ya, another factor that made the game simply memorabel was because someone among the supporters. The force that made me played my heart out. hmm, so nice to remeber.

Ok,back to reality. Honestly, this picture tells me that i've gone through everything, ups and downs. It tells me that i've experienced many stages of life and i'm ready to face anything. Things get better and better. For now i'm looking forward for another chapter in my life. I will discover new challenges as i'm about to start my Accounting Degree. I pray for a smooth journey.

the past is history,

the future is mystery,

and the present is gift, that is why it is call present

-master oogway-

Tribute to ACD4E..

2008-06-29T07:22:00.001-07:00

ACD4E..!!!! that was my class during my final sem in diploma. happenig and unite like no others. i've been thinking to write sumthing for ACD4E for along time but end up with nothing becaue i just cannot express it in words. but now, i will do it. to let u guys know how lucky am i to be in the same class with all of you. i want you to know that i really enjoy every momment with all of you.

ok,this pic was taken when we were in part 2. No pic for final part. sedey! n now i want to share with you all the character involve in making ACD4E so great!

barisan kepimpinan.......

amirul-class rep. is it a mistake choosing him as a class rep?? hahah! absolutely no! great time to bully him and nisa doing a great job for cursing him in class dat day. haha! JK mirul. u rock bro. eventhough emosi but u can control da class. klau x why UEM choose u to be in their apprentice programme.

didi-asst class rep. another UEM prentice and also my duet partner during dinner. nerd but refue to admit it. hahah! class dexter n make mirul life much2 easier.

front row seaters....

qila- she always use laptop bags as her handbag. really big even u can put two laptops.. she always has her own bodyguard. guess who?

remie- wooo! dont mess with this girl. once her open her mouth, u might get it hard to defence yourself. 4 flat for 3 sem..what do you think? tp klau lemah lembut sket sure ok!

eton-yeah! hopefully she doesnt understnand all this thing..bdk paling blur. but how comw she is so clever in her blurines??

najwa-can i name my daughter after you? haha! seems to be so perfect but garang sketla. show her talent to be good mother even she is just 20..hahah!

nisa- ceti! just like her close friend. expert in collecting class fund as well as duit photostat.. her neigbour is Uncle Das, the bus owner! we rent his bus for PD trip.

the boys......

prof-sim confidently thought he is my lecturer. Abah to all of us. garang and berdedikasi. even just finish his diploma, he can match some lecturer who hav 20 years experience.

amir dewa- shock culture victim? but some ppl said he is in growing stage. he likes to learn new things. if he menage to complete his growing stage succesfully, he can be someone who is bbkat n berilmu.

shuk- my highest respect for this guy. he can skip classes without any1 notice it. n KREKO die hard fan.

aki-my forever classmate. he often miss his bff who currently having 1 sem break. food lover and my kafemate.

DRB HICOM

hans- gossip girl. u can get all the infos 4rm her. (the place where i korek story) hahah! nice because always let me borrow her celcom bband.

nadia nasir- she said she likes some1 who is dark but as i concern all her past n present bf can be categorised in jambu look guy..hmm,i like ur white specs btw

nad tam-meterialistic. Plan to get married to some1 who rich so she can happily be at home.

esah-yucks! dgn slumbenya mencium ketiak sndr di kl sentral. haha! but dat slumbernes make her different. and i saw her ghost in class. it really happened!

kelate geng...

zakirah-she works as spa promoter during Jom Heboh. tak ajak pun.. knoe little bout her as she not speak that much

gee- classmate 4rm part 1..sori nadia, forgot to mention you. she scolded me in the 1st week of UiTM life because i called her jibam.. i will never forget that. sorry gee

che'- hahaha! mirul really crazy when he thought che' is a tokan. emoitonless. one word perfectly suit her.

hazrini-pencilok fone bbakat. dont get me wrong. she's the one who hide my fone. ahaa, cahaya hazrini...hahaha!

others...

ema-u will be so lucky if u can hear her voice. in 2 years i only heard a few words from her. too contra with me.

jenny- whats the prob? hahah! the 1st time i talked to her i asked her " jenny, ko lahir kt US ke?" she's from sarawak btw...

fatihah-too small for her car. but in her size she can control some1 as big as Aki easily. was it Aki? hmm..

mona-newcomer. i always hope that she can beat remie in BEL presentation. but sadlyremie is too good. its ok mona. u can try again and u know that u have my support.

qosh- another newcomer. early plan to conqueer the girls' hearts with his hair but end up cursing class E for his law paper. too bad qosh

where ever u guys plan to go after this, even to UNSW or branches, i hope we can keep this friendship forever. keep in touch. u guys rock!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KYSM.. the changes

2008-06-29T01:35:00.001-07:00

I went to KYS on 26 May to collect my SPM cert..hahaha! after 4 years. it's always been a pleasure to be there as i miss the school very much. As i passed the main gate, i can feel the school years aura bursting into my bodybut yet i noticed some changes in KYS.........

1. Only 2-3 trees left at saylem. they plan to build new resource centre there for the A-level
programe.
2. All women for the main post in Admin 1 and 2.
3. Class finish at 2 pm
4. Lunch at 2 pm. 6 periods after morning tea break.
5. KA no longer there.
6. KYS Rammers nearly lost Melaka tittle. Luckily Isa Jani was the referee for the semi and
final.
8. Election for Headboy and Headgirl
9. Track dh mcm ladang tanaman lalang.

after allthere's one thing that still remain the same....

Pakcik Ujang is stillthe headguard. yeah! keep going pakcik ujang!

so here i am..

2008-06-29T00:08:00.000-07:00

i decided to hav a blog. if oscar hav one so i shoud hav one too. Otai si pencerita... so i will start telling u guys my stories. duh! the only thing that crossed my mind is about my pre-graduation dinner. thats what the organiser called the nignt. it has been a while since the lat time i attend such event. hmm,the last one was in part 1 for Kesatria Negara Dinner. The night that doesn't happening at all but not this time. This time i ruled the stage with 2 performences. believe it or not but it really happened. thanx to ohm n oscar for inviting me. for your informationm, that was the 1st time i sang on the stage. I couldnt eat much that night becaue my adrenalin pumped really fast resulting my nafsu makan to pause.

saat memalukan, when all my tablemate called for Dean's List award and only me n aidil left . guesswe had terriblely choosed the wrong table. ahahha! but that's what made the night so happening. Plus the two gila MCs, and how rileks and casula the events. what a night to remember.

aki,otai,umar

me najwa

nadia,me,esah

me and oscarthe whole batch

me and didi on the stage.. also oscar and ijal....

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